Lost

 Introductions and other rambling

Hello, I suppose I should begin this by telling you a little about myself. My name is Theodore Scothern and I'm a 16 year old, Amazon published, writer. At the moment in my life I am studying law (so original) and I feel lost. The more I study of law, the more I learn, the more I realise I don't want to do law for the rest of my life as I had planned to up to this point. I have found myself with that same yearning for a creative living that leads so many of my generation into the trap of wanting to become 'youtubers'. 

One night, in an odd honesty brought about by prosecco, I confessed this all to my girlfriend: I don't want to do law for the rest of my life, I want to do something creative with my life. Now this is where the dilemma is dear readers. I don't want to do law for a living (it just interests me) and so I am not putting my full effort into my studies, and on the other hand I know that following something creative isn't a for sure career even if I throw my effort into it 100%. So now you see the dilemma, I am not putting my full effort into any facet of my potential future in either field as there is a neigh impassable barrier to each. I hope one of you will have some sort of wisdom on this task, something to guide me through the proverbial sea of ennui I have lost myself in. That's why this blog exists after all.

Creativity's origins

My childhood was a tumultuous roller-coaster ride for everyone involved (myself included) but one through thread throughout the self imposed insanity of my childhood was my creative spark. For literal years, upwards of five if I had to hazard a guess, I acted out all the roles for a continuous story based on all my favourite pieces of media at the time (Doctor Who, Undertale, etc). Alone in my quiet little room I would weave an intricate through thread of a plot involving every possible cliché and twist imaginable just because I could. All this was fuelled by two things: a lack of access to technology and a hell of a lot of reading. The only regret I have about the story of Test 707 (the main character I created) was that I didn't write down everything that was happening as it 'occurred'. Oh boy was there a lot of crazy story-lines that my mind made up (My character stopped a universe destroying explosion by containing it in what looked like a DVD player and then when that explosion broke free he let it throw him across alternate universes and wipe his memory in the process) but that's not the point. The point is I have always had an incredibly creative mind, in fact that's my one trick, my creativity, I'm not good at sports, not particularly good at school (although my cleverness has helped me coast up until this point where I am hitting a brick wall) but I am godamn good at making a good story. All I want to do for the rest of my life is turn my creativity into stories I can weave into whatever medium I can. By this point I have a small CV in terms of creativity: a gaming Youtube channel I eventually abandoned, a few short films I starred in/promptly deleted due to the ridicule of my class-mates, an audio adventure I still remain proud of (can be found on my Youtube channel 'Scothbob Productions'. The audio adventure is called 'James'), a few unfinished stories on wattpad and most importantly four Amazon published novels. All I want to do is entertain, turn the funny little stories my brain spits out into something I can do for a living but I don't even know where to begin. I hope this blog will introduce me to some people who can give me some more direction, maybe even help me out, but if you can't do that, that's okay I just hope you enjoy my ramblings. If you have anything to say please leave a comment :D. 

What the heck is this blog for anyway?

You may be wondering why the hell am I writing all this and (for lack of a better term) why am I yapping about myself? Believe me I know this blog isn't going to do great, as of writing this in 2024 a blog is a hilarious concept. No one reads them anymore, not really, but on the slim possibility that someone could find me through this I'm going to do it. That's not the true reason though, I am not doing this 'blog' as a soulless promotion of my writing (although the promotion is an added bonus) for me it is going to be a form of therapy, a way to turn my thoughts and machinations into tangible words on a screen. Not only that but It will hopefully be an entertaining piece of writing that you all can read and see the thoughts of a teenager drifting in a sea of ennui and finally it will be a place for me to release early chapters of any fiction I am writing on. Hopefully, next time I talk to you I won't be as formal but one thing I know for sure is the fact that I'll be just as lost.

I want to be a writer, but I cannot for the fact I am not putting in the legwork. This blog is a step towards that legwork, my attempt to follow the footsteps of one of my favourite authors Andy Weir and try and promote my work through a blog whilst connecting with a few people. Because that's what we all crave deep down, connection.

If you want to support me you could give one of my Amazon books a whirl, you could just download the free sample through Kindle and have a gander. If you like it pull the trigger and get it. If anyone reading this gets one of my books please know I am open to constructive criticism and general criticism, just leave a comment in the most recent post of this blog and I will get back to you. You can find my Books my searching my name 'Theodore Scothern' into Amazon. Hopefully, one of you reads it and has something to say. I would recommend starting with 'The Empty System' which is the first book in a Sci-Fi trilogy I am very proud of . Thank you.

I don't know when I will next see you, maybe next week, maybe tomorrow, but just know this about me. I love telling stories, no matter the medium I will give it a whack and I hope to god this blog helps me somewhat get closer to my true desire of telling stories for a living by getting close to the people who enjoy my work.

Thanks for listening to my musings. I hope you enjoyed them no matter how pretentious they were and I hope that if anyone reads this I'll see you again next time. Goodnight.

-Theodore Scothern